I have been in and out of an abusive relationship for three years and at one point was strong and moved away out of state for one year and a half by myself with my Cat and was doing better as even though I still loved him, I could not easily fall into contacting and seeing him when I felt vunerable thus compromising my recovery from the abuse. It was of couse difficult, as I have no family as they were highly dysfunctional and abusive also, so I have to count on myself and be strong. I am strong, but I missed him and also part of me missed my home, so I decided to move back. Now a year and half almost to years later I am horribly depresed and feel angry, stupid and a fool for believing he would change and truly love and care for me. I wish I had remained in the other state a thousand miles away and gave myself time to heal. I want to move back. I cannot see myself moving forward and healing from him or the other abusive parts of my past completely staying in this area. I want to continue therapy in the new state, but not here. I have worked very hard on other childhood issues in therapy here, but I feel I cannot begin again here. It is too overwhelming with him and the childhood issues I grew up with but overcame, nevertheless they are still around. Does anyone or has anyone experienced this and have you felt these feelings?