I want to remember as far back as I can since I know so much happened when I was younger and it is important for me to understand it? Why is it important? I can't really explain that. Maybe I wonder if I ever had something seemingly normal. Maybe I just need to know why I have some of the anxieties and such that I do. I do not remember much before about 14. That which I remember between 14 and 20 or so involves huge amount of alsohol and other mood altering substances so those memories are kind of wacked out anyway. After 20, for the most part I am ok.

Of my young childhood, say 10 and under, I have only a hanfull of memories and many of those are full of holes. Also, some of the memories I have from that age I wonder if they are my memories or my creation of the memories based on what may have been told to me.