My mood was pretty good up until a couple of minutes ago.

Then, I read a post in the relationships dept, I think. No warning signal. Maybe it didn't need one. But just a few sentences into the post, I felt this wave come over me. I couldn't focus on what I was reading, just had horrible memories popping into my head about my past with SA and ongoing self-hate thoughts.

I should look at this moment as just that: a moment in time. But my everything has changed so fast! I feel as though that wave is still over me, pushing me down and around in the coarse sand below. Above is the pressure of torrential forces, below is much calmer. Either way hurts.

Anyone know what I am talking about here?