My dad called me up today right away asking where my mom was. obviously, he knew she was at work. i go, whats the matter? Hes like...your mom's taking me to court!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm like, why? all nice and calm..and hes like....deb, its ALL ABOUT MONEY to your mother!! But, i understand why my mom is taking him to court, because, he hasnt paid the 'right amount' in like, over 10 years. heh. he should be paying more and in those ten years my mom never asked to go to court for that. anyways, my dad made me feel really bad, idk who to talk too, so i came here. my dad made me horrible, it justs disgust me. i said to him, i DO NOT want to get involved...and he does it anyways, keeps on going and complaining about MY MOTHER. grrrr. and then hes like, were going to have to cancel your party tonight (fam. over for my belated bday) and then i called my mom and told her what had happened and shes like..hes a jerk for getting you involved thats why i didnt tell you right away, i didnt want you to worry or have it be on your mind. and she thinks its pretty selfish about him cancelling my thing tonight because its ALWAYS all about him. hes a jerk....i cant stand him anymore....ughhh.
And i found out in my family session the other night that when they were married together he used to abuse her. that makes me so0o0o0o mad! i want to get back at him, like have my mom bring that to court...lol..but its prob. not gona happen. it just makes me mad because he once to ME, pinned me down to the ground and put his hands around my neck. Just because i started freaking out that i was going back for my fourth time to the hospital. and he got pretty agressive and started screaming his head off towards me. ughhh...idk what to do....im so frustrated right now. i feel like crying. he makes me wana cry and cut. grrrr.

deb