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Trust...losing a T finding a new T. remember not the other topics mentioned in a chat tonight. Not prepared for such touchy sensitive subject. many conversations at once. Hard to focus.
Cry.
Why why the tears? Thoughts so fast can barely type them. Lost
Afraid...abandoned...hide...do not show fear. Everything is okay. Need to prepare slow down thinking...going to be sick. Subject of T....triggering must be....understand...no one knows us...no here long enough to be known. Take control...be in charge of not healthy behavior...it is possible...but really there is no one to help us...find a T that no leave us...trust? believe will be abandoned...even if work really hard not to make mistakes. Annoy other people with self doubt. remain silent about those thoughts. Instruction is wanted but thus far no instructors have been located. No money either to pay instructors to teach how to live happier. People tired of on-going unhappiness. fake happiness...hide unhappiness...it makes no sense why the SI always seemed so happy.
Not really. Never knew me. Never knew of the internal raging fire, the blistering beneath the skin, the wrecking crane in the brain. Not good enough...misunderstood. Try...hang on...hold on....breathe...it can be done. read more...exercise more...take better care of self...be determined. Do it.
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