Well, I don't post alot of things, but I am needed of some where to talk. My Dad passed away last night from brian cancer, and he lives in Calif and I am in Texas. I am struggling with the fact that the Airline fares are beyond what I can afford, even if someone dies they offer no discounts, in fact American Airlines their specials are cheaper than anything else. Bottom line is I quess you need to know ahead of time when some one is going to die in order to be able to attend. I am pretty p...ssed right now. This is my Dad and I can not even go to his funeral. Along with being alone here in Texas with no other family, and little to no friends I am grieving alone. I can not stop crying and I am so damn angry I can't even focus on any thing I hope what I am writing makes sense. I am already going thru grief counseling, now just add 1 more to the weekly sessions. My question is am I a piece of crap for not going to my Dad funeral? I love him so much and I just cant believe he is gone. I know we all feel the same things when some one we love dies or leaves but it doesn't make it any better when it hurts like hell. THANKS FOR LETTING ME VENT I AM GOING TO GO SCEAM NOW!!