The idea of going pleasantly insane is attractive. I don't think it usually happens that way. Only a few lucky? kids get born with a kind of insanely happy retardedness. Down's people also seem pretty cheerful as a rule.

I have not gone wacky insane, but have had a dab of psychosis with my depression. Not fun. Ugly. Also you don't get it when you want it. It is not convenient. Not an escape at all.

Babble on. I would like to write you with cogent and useful information. It is not there, in my head, so it can't be put down in writing. Sorry.

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