Sometimes I feel bad about the time that's spent on people. I mean I spend a lot of time tending to other people that I often forget about tending to myself. I let myself go a lot. I guess that's part of my depression.

Some days I get online and focus totally on the people I'm online with, and I don't get dressed, neglect my hygiene, or neglect my health...all for somebody else. I know I shouldn't do that, but I'm so wrapped up in other people's problems that I really don't care as long as I'm helping someone else out. It's really important to me to help people out, but I really don't get much in return sometimes. You know how that is.

Recently I've felt so invisible to so many people that it's starting to bother me and I'm regretting all the time that's spent on other people. I try to please EVERYBODY, which is not a good thing for me. It's the cycle I get into, as I'm sure so many other people get into it, too. So I guess I have to figure out how to stop that cycle.