Why I am really reluctant to be dependent on anyone as far as getting around is because I've had to deal with Atlantic County disabled/senior transportation and it's not always dependable. And I have a really hard time with my staff taking me places because I fear they are not trusting me about where I go and what I do, what I buy, what I say or don't say when I go to the doctor, psychiatrist, counselor, vocational counselor...I dread that they will try and INFLUENCE those people to 'polish' me so that I 'fit' into society,so that I won't 'stress out',so that others will ACCEPT me..I don't ask for acceptance, what I ask for is people to respect me 'as is'.
And as far as depending on family, I never could. And yes that is hard for me...and why depending on people is harder for me. If I don't have to depend on others, I don't have to be disappointed by others.