I'm so sorry you're feeling so down, Amazonmom! It's the disease that makes you lose perspective and unable to see the positive things in life. It's a horrible feeling that I'm sure all of us can relate to. Like the others above me said: you are an amazing mom with a beautiful daughter and a loving husband. Don't forget that!

Something that helps me when I lose perspective is to spend 15 minutes listing all the things that I'm thankful for (yes, cheesy. But really does help me.). I force myself to fill those 15 minutes so that I have to wrack my brain for even the smallest things I am thankful for. More often than not, I feel a lot better after doing that and realize how lucky I truly am, despite some of the things I struggle with.

Hope you feel better soon! You will get through this. Good luck with your T - tell him/her everything so that he/she can help you.