I talked for the first time last Monday about the abuse from my childhood. I had never told anyone before, but I told my therapist. She asked the questions and I nodded the answers. I've been seeing her for a year, but it's taken her weekly sessions to get it out of me.

But now what? I feel like I've done something wrong, like I've broken a rule. I'm embarrassed to go and see her again, or to ever talk about it again. Ever since I talked about it last week, I've had nothing but flashbacks and smells and nightmares. I'm afraid of everything, jumping at the slightest sound, and obsessing over being followed.

I know that part of acceptance and healing is to talk about it, but WTF, this sucks and it's like its happening all over again. How do you deal with it after you've talked? Right now, it feels like I ****ed up and should have just kept quiet, it was easier that way.