It hasn't been a good week, and right this second I'm coming from reading an article in today's London Telegraph which essentially says that if you watch a computer screen more than two hours a day you're dead.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/health/he...the-heart.html

It's 5:28 P.M. on MY Tuesday, January 11th, and, frankly, I'm about ready to give up. I found out today that I can't possibly pay my creditors what they need, that we'll probably have to go bankrupt, and certainly lose the house, and my wife of 42 years is wildly angry at me, and we only have fifty dollars to get to the end of the month, among other things. Not only is my business dead but everyone else in the same business is dead too, locally. I just don't think anything matters anymore. Except having enough money to buy a rope. I'll probably leave this life as utterly naked as I was when I entered it. My wife wouldn't even dream of asking me what's wrong or what's going on or what's happening. We don't have enough money. My fault. I spoke today with several of my confreres in the same industry and found out I'm not alone (i.e., it's not my fault). But I don't think we can hold out any longer. If it regarded myself alone, that simply wouldn't be a big deal. But selling it to my wife, selling ANYTHING to my wife, is ALWAYS a big deal. She comes from a culture that ARGUES about EVERYTHING at GREAT LENGTH, regardless of the potential value of the argument. I.e., not American. I'm ready to go. I really think I'm ready to go. Take care.