I can remember many events that occurred while manic, although the memories can be distorted. I would imagine she would remember many of the violent acts, and I hope would show remorse upon recovery. Most of the impulsive things I did and said while in manic delusions I do not recall. My family and spouse seem to know I am out of my mind and do not expect me to apologize for things I can't remember. Unfortunately some of the most inappropriate things I have done are exaggerated expressions of things I actually felt inside. I lose my filter when manic. Other craziness has no explanation other that loose associations, grandiosity, paranoia, and a racing brain.