You remember correctly, Sannah. That's not an option for me right now.

I'm frustrated that I still don't want to stop. Seriously. What will it take for me to get over myself and stop destorying what I have? I'm angry with myself for ever starting, much less keeping it up. How can I accept past scars when I keep making them?

I know I can be found lovable by others, but I also feel guilty. I don't deserve love because I can't give it back right.

Thanks to anyone who listens to the confused ramblings of a half hearted idiot.