{{{{{{Trish}}}}}}}}}}}

This is one of the reasons I have been silent for awhile - I did not want anyone to be upset or feel badly.

You have NOT upset me or failed me in any way. I have failed myself and the people around me. That is not your fault. You are entitled to a wonderful life with your family, esp. around the holidays.

There is nothing to forgive - I love you dearly and that hasn't changed one little bit. I would give anything just to be held and to cry my heart out, but that isn't going to happen. You can't help me, my friend, only I can do that.

I see my T tomorrow, probably for the last time esp. since he goes on vacation soon. It will be difficult, but that's okay.

Please stop thinking that you could have done anything. It's okay.

Love,

me