((((Sundog)))) That wasn't at all confusing. It was very clear. I know it's frustrating. It's so hard to be in a state of unease, whether emotional or physical distress. Now and then, I remember that, though I hate what's coming up for me in the moment, e.g. feeling like an outsider, incapable of love, it will eventually shift, and that there will be other future moments of feeling connected to others. It breaks the delusion that I'm always cut off from others.

I was in a very painful state a little while ago, not appreciating that I am a newcomer here, and that others have known each other longer. Then, I came across your response to me above, and the spell was broken, (at least for now), along with the crazy idea that I never touch anyone, that I have no impact on anyone. So, thank you.