I want to cut in the worst way possible! I want to rip open my arms...nobody will notice. Nobody seems to notice me anymore. My bf was watching porn and I yelled at him for it. I don't like it if he's watching it by himself. It's like he has no need for me when he's watching it. He says he loves me so much, but if you love a person I don't see why you have to look at someone else! Those women on tv are everything i'm not! Beautiful, thin, flawless. I'm fat, ugly, tainted...everything that is so unattractive! Tonight he was oohing and ahhing at me, at my body...so he says. He says he loves my body and then he goes and looks at them later? I don't understand it! He's a liar like the rest of the male population! They always freakin lie to me! No matter what the subject matter is they LIE! They ALL lie about everything!!!! I hate them all! I hate em I hate em I hate em! No woman has never done this to me! They have never lied to me as much as men lie to me!