Hi. I need some advice. I am recently reliving some issues that happened in my childhood. I was sexually abused. It's killing me and I think it's affecting my bipolar disorder mixed. It makes me crazy thinking about all this stuff. My T calls them flashbacks, but they make my moods swing so wide sometimes I can't tell if I'm up or down.

My fiancee and I have been discussing some of these things. I have recently come to realize that I'm a control freak, somehow thinking if I control mine and everyone else's life that bad things won't happen, but they always do. When they do I blame someone else. I was wondering if anyone else is dealing with anything like this and how they are coping with the feelings of inadequacy and despair. And if they have any idea on any techniques I can try, besides bi-weekly therapy, that might help. My relationship cannot move forward until I deal with my past and I need help.