(((((((((lavieeinrose))))))))) I don't have any words of wisdom, but I do have some hugs

I think your insight is a really good one. Facing the unpleasant feelings as they arise while keeping in mind that the pleasant moments will return again definitely sounds like a good way forward. I'm sorry it's so difficult with the depression, anxiety and ADD. Do you enjoy being artistic and creative for it's own sake? Is it relaxing at all? Or is it problematic because you feel - as you mention here - that you "should" be making a career out of it??

I hope there is a way for you to enjoy your creativity and artistic skills in their own right again. I would love to be creative and artistic!!!!!! It must be wonderful having these talents!!

Good luck with the voc rehab agency. And I hope others here will have some constructive suggestions