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Hello, Im new here & just introducing myself so yall dont wonder who in the world is this person replying to these posts. : )
Im 31 years old, have been seeing pdocs & therapists since I was 17 yrs old. All those years they told me they thought I was bipolar, but I never really agreed. I quit taking my meds, & gave up on therapy...until this past year. I got into a new relationship, & this one is different than others Ive been in. Hes so caring & has been there for me since we got together, but his patience is becoming very very thin. I am driving him insane & Im pushing him away. SO I decided to go back & give therapy another shot after 5 years. I have been doin well with therapy for almost 4 months now, & have only missed 2 pdoc appt. (due to oversleeping) darn early A.M appts. kill me!!! lol
I am on 4 different meds, & my pdoc wants me to go to intense outpatient therapy 5 hours a day, 5 days a week for 2 weeks. I will be taking a leave of absense from work for those 2 weeks. Im also doin the DBT 1 on 1 until Im comfortable enough to do the group thing. I believe if it wasnt for my boyfriend, Id still be without help. I realized that I need to not only do this for myself, but my relationship as well...In order for my relationship to succeed I need to get myself stable enough to make progress with him.
I was not only Dx borderline personality disorder, but add OCD to the mix, with a sprinkle of many other symptoms (if thats a good word to use) such as, Mania, Grandiosity, Severe Anxiety, & Paranoia. blah, how scary that sounds....The meds Im currently on are Prozac 40mg ( hes takin it slow, is slowly getting me up to 80mg to see how that works), Lamictal (100mg) & Risperdal (1mg, slowly going to increase with each visit, just started a few days ago) & vistaril for anxiety (50mg 3x's a day, but I only take as needed instead of the 3x's a day)
Thanks for letting me spill to yall....Ill make sure to post a lot, Believe me I need to some days! Some days Im so exhausted & I feel as though Ive got the flu, just from getting angry & snapping out. : (
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