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Old Jan 12, 2011, 08:10 AM
Anonymous37819
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I'm gonna take a shot in the dark here and say"to raise the floor some", means
to, go back and reflect on the morals, that were instilled, on myself as a child.

Then I can ask myself, ethically speaking, "am I practicing the basics?"

.......which are...play nice in the sandbox....hold hands while crossing the street
.....and so on....

.....as I have gotten older....I have lost those perspectives.....then...due to my
super-sensitivity, the new saying is, "it's my way, or the highway".

So, these are the results from my own "self anaysis".

What I have corrected, were, "if yaa dont play nice in the sandbox, I dont wanna
play wit yaa anymore".......or raising my standards of associatives, "the floor",
(persons I associate with, who understand NO is a complete sentence)

While lowering my own expectations , or "the roof ", upon this new element of
associates(friends).......creates a slow re-building, of the good things I have learned
in life......(for me only...without being a butthead).....

Now, from my personal experience, the capitolized "NO" above comes from violation.
At a very early age I was abused.

Violation and vulnerability are Adult words, or learned words. I had to comprehend both words, before I could understand myself.

Deciefering between the two words, I had to remain vulnerable without feeling
violated, if I were to progress in this thing called life(or feel just a little better).

This is a small portion of what I have learned on this journey.

To remain vulnerable, I had to trust. I could not trust humans anymore, so I gave
all my trust to whatever ones conception may be, of something greater than,
humans themselves.

....and...in turn...being ready and willing(way,way to much emotional pain), quite
a few years(decade) ago, I had my own....spiritual awakening....or breakdown(lol)....
(.....another story..)

...being vulnerable myself, as of this day...has allowed me to come from being
homeless and spending winters outside, to submitting an offer on a house(waiting to
see if it has been accepted, today,right now)

......and to the storytellers.....

....this my dears,you must remember
....the quickest way to the truth.....
....is by means of a short story......

....a lost gold coin......
....is found by means of a penny candle.......

.....to much empathy, produced super sensitivity, at least for me......

......sparrowstail.......
Thanks for this!
Michah, TheByzantine