I am the same in that the PTSD triggers my moods and swings (and vice versa), and also in the need to want to control them and everything around me (very controlling, I am). Medication and weekly therapy are a must for me. I couldn't manage it without the help and support of T and my pdoc. Friends and family are also very supportive to deal with all of the above. I just cannot do it alone.

It took a long time to accept what had happened, that it was in the past and to cope in the moment. There are skills T can teach to cope with flashbacks in the moment and the anxiety that comes with it. It cannot harm you now despite how real it feels. Ask about techniques for this as well as for the inadequacy and despair. It took me a long time to admit to these feelings but once I did they were really helpful. It still plagues me; there's no way I'm going to say I'm all better but having coping strategies now that have lessened the effects so not so traumatized all the time.