what a heartfelt post, A....i could see your day unfolding and felt as though i were there with you. one of my first indicators that something is wrong is the crying. i keep xanax at home but have decided to start taking some with me to work. one day i was helping a woman frame her art and i started crying looking at the print. it reminded me of days long gone......i don't mind that too much but i don't like it when i can't control it. all in all, it sounds as if you learne d something positive from yesterday. the guy was definitely not for you!! xoxo pat