Yeah being in an altered mental state so young must be really confusing. I started dabbling with alcohol at that age, but if it were condoned and encouraged by my parents...well, that would just be extremely confusing. Nothing but bad messages and lack of safety sent from that kind of thing.

It sucks you get so depressed after drinking with friends. I wonder if there's anything you can do before you go out, to prepare for the next day. Like, maybe go to the movies and distract yourself with a good comedy or something.

It sounds like you are a person who really cares about people, and really tries to do the best thing.

I wonder if it would be possible for you to send him a letter or something, if you dislike being around him or talking to him face to face, telling him you know he's gay or bi and that he can just come out now.

My mom told her gay friend she's a lesbian, and then around me she's like, " I have no idea why 'L' is hitting on me! Why do lesbians hit on me?!"

I always just bite my tongue. But really I want to say, "duh it's cuz you either are a lesbian or pretend to be one."

I don't see why the hiding is necessary. I am completely open about people's sexuality. I think it's all fine, and I didn't have to battle myself to get there. I've always thought so.

Talking to you about your situation makes me think about people hiding and how alienating it can be for everyone. I understand the frustration. It's like what's the point of hanging out when the whole thing is a totally messed up facade anyway.