........What came to mind this morning was monkey see monkey do. Did not feel like being the nice little person this morning as I pretty much "ignored" AJ when he came down to eat. I was making this chicken helper with pasta, but didn't have chicken cooked so I used hamburg, but that isn't important. I pulled out this Emeril Green spice, which I have never used before and really didn't know what food to use with this spice. So I just sprinkle a bit on the pasta and turned my back on AJ. Out of the corner of my eye, AJ was getting a pinch of the spice for his pasta too...Had to hold back from laughing and had to bite my tongue because I did not want to say out loud monkey see, monkey do......
..............But then another though ran through my mind. As I could hear AJ's dad in the far back of my mind, screaming and intimadating me when we were married. I was feeling the same today as I did when I was married, which happened to be "miserable". Not that I find "yesterdays" important today, I did feel a sense of "familiarity". And the monkey see, monkey do applied to the "yesterdays". Although we are now divorced, yesterdays are gone and I get along great with AJ's dad now. And certainally don't want to rehash old feelings. But AJ's shadow, "his dad" is the now "today". Which isn't so funny now when thinking of the monkey see, monkey do ..................