Thank you for your replies.

I do feel very shameful and embarrassed everything that happened. I think, in a pretty big way, I still at fault for much of what happened. Intellectually, I can gather that I was a child and it was not my doing, but my feelings are just all over the place. It really is like being young again and feeling everything again.

Is it worth going through all of this in the end?

I sent an email to my therapist last Wednesday letting her know that I was freaking out a bit. She responded and said she'd call, but I missed it. I tried calling her back, but I haven't hear anything since. My next appointment is suppsoed to be Friday, but I just don't know if I can handle going back. I wish I wouldn't have said anything.