I can understand what you mean Shez and I don't think it's weird. It's sad because I'm sure that you are important to more people than you realize.

I've felt that way too though. When you hear about a young mother that dies of cancer and it seems so wrong and unfair because she had so much to live for - she was beautiful and happy and loved. Then you look at yourself and think about what little you have and wish you could take their place and they could be back with their loved ones as they should. Is that what you mean?