Just want to report here for those reading here and not in the psychotherapy forum. I also would like to discuss EMDR with others who have gone through it. I just don't get it!

I didn't have any sexual reaction this time but my main reaction was that I wanted to smash the buzzer things and upset the whole setup! Later it came to me that I wished I could have held my T's hand instead (which we do sometimes). So my reaction during EMDR was about the EMDR process but it was productive. It told me how much I want the connection to my T and to others, and how I didn't have it the way I wanted in my childhood. The buzzer things were a barrier to the connection, especially touching, that I wanted and needed. Something was a barrier in my childhood too.

I never react to EMDR the way I think you're "supposed to", but my T says there's no right or wrong. It's not about specific trauma, so maybe that's why I get such different thoughts afterwards. It showed I was angry. Is this the kind of results you're supposed to get from EMDR? It stirs things up, doesn't make me feel better.

Has anyone experienced EMDR and had non-typical results, or are there no typical results? I need to so some reading on EMDR and reassure myself. Not that I don't believe T, but when she told me how wonderful I did, I was a bit skeptical.