I started with a new pdoc, and he seems nice. at least understanding and has the same type of practice the old one had. But talking about EVERYTHING has turned out to be exoosting. I just don't know what to do. It stressed me out, and things have just gone down hill from there. I'm almost to the point that the alters will take over and start the SI process, yet again. I'm just sooo scared that things won't go how I want them. I just need to talk with someone soon. I will be talking with a counselor as soon as I know if the insurance is covered. But what can I do until then, Reading my text books aren't really helping, and I have no idea if I can even remain safe at this point in time. SI just sounds soooooo goood. Which I know is not good, and needs to take a backseat in my mind but it's just not working. But I did pick up a book, that may just help me spiritually, so that may be good. I just have to start reading it on the weekends or when I need a break. What can I do to stop the madness.