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Originally Posted by hayward
"Originally Posted by hayward 
Oh, just ignore my post. I would delete it if could. It was stupid!"
Yeah.. what she said before me!!
Umm, I guess I just meant that I am really really thin skinned, and vulnerable. There is no room in between someone's comments and my heart- it goes right through to me. Like maybe I need some cushioning (strategies) to fill up some of the holes, to help mellow the sharpness of the "attack" that I take so personally.
So, yes,what I said was confusing and kind of stupid because I didn't explain it well. The raising/lowering meant that lessening the space between the intent of the comments, and my reaction to them, would temper my emotions some. Right now I drop so quickly that it feels like I am spiraling through a lot of space directly into a negative sea of self doubt.
I need thicker skin all around me! I need those thought reflections and strategies that were talked about to give me strength and help with the impulsive need to self-deprecate..
(Oh my, that doesn't really make sense either but I was trying to just dig myself out 
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Boy oh boy, do I know what you mean about being thin-skinned. When I receive something I perceive as critical or hurtful, I back off and put a wall between myself and the world. If I can't be touched, I can't be hurt, right? So, I find myself avoiding emotions at all cost. I talked with my therapist about it today and we will be exploring ways to cope with sensitivity.