I don't even need to "put myself out there" to get hurt. It's weird.. when someone says or does something that gets to me this way, it is automatic and through the core.. It even happens with my kids who don't have any idea that they what they are saying pierces me this way.

I immediately revert to feeling like a child, seriously. It happens SO FAST. Here's the comment, and then BOOM I am "put in my place." I get sick to my stomach, determined to distance myself from any contact with anyone ever again. I am a failure, a useless and pathetic person. Any positive feelings I had before, go right out the window.