If you can relate please help. My family and I have been dealing with my schizophrenia for years now.It's kills me to think all that they put up with and go through.I know it's frustrating and at times ridiculous.It kills me to see it in there faces.I wished I could stop it .I wished I could kill it. The past 2years they have had to deal my cancer recovery which seemed almost endless.Now I have torn a legement (PCL) in my knee and will prob need surgery.This once again setting my recovery back.All my small plans have gone to **** and again I'm stuck here not recovering not moving not healing and putting my family through the never ending **** again.It's ****ing killing me it's ****ing killing me.I just want to be normal with small reachable goals but I can't even do that.Everyone thinks I'm ****ing stupid and as you know in a lot of ways that's true.We schizos lose any cognition at a drop of a hat.The written word becomes a smear and for simple math..screw it.I have done a lot better in the past but since someone jacked with my schizo really hard I can't do anything and my family is stuck again with the useless piece of ****.It never ****ing ends ! If people would stop ****ing with me and I can keep healthy I know I could make some progress.I think it's time to go.This will never happen it will never happen it will never happen.