Hi Peaches,
I read your post a few days ago and have been thinking about you ever since. My heart went out to you when I read what you wrote. I totally heard you when you said, "I just feel so alone."

I am sorry that you feel this way and I can understand it as well. What really resonated with me was what you said about now having to be your own loving parent and give yourself what you didn't get and how it doesn't feel right. I get it. It is not the same at all. And it totally is not fair that you didn't get it then and can't get it now.

I just heard today that in Japan one can adopt grandparents, adult children, anything goes... I am not sure how legit this is but this is what I heard. I told my t that I was moving to Japan. Want to come too?

I wish I had some soothing wonderfully intelligent things to say to you. I am just not that smart or cultivated in smoothness yet but I do want to tell you that your post was heard. I felt your pain. I have thought about you a lot lately and you are not alone, because you are connected to me. We are connected in the pain. We are connected with the lost children in us. We are connected because we are both lacking relationships. We are connected because we both are going to move to Japan.