I sometimes get waves of emotions about the hurt I've suffered through abuse. The pain is so large it makes me feel insignificant. I feel worthless, useless, hopeless, despair. With each wave I try to write down the words that run through my head. I'm starting a letter to my abuser. I'm not sure if I'll send it, right now it's just for me. It's a difficult process though, to revisit the pain each time drains me completely.

I've found I just have to ride out these emotions, these waves with breathing. I used to do unhealthy things like drink. At times I still struggle with this but I'm sober. I haven't had these waves in awhile, they are unpredictable and draining once the wrenching leaves. Im looking, I need, support from others suffering like me. How to get through this?