arggggg. needles to say I did find someone to talk with but..... I said to much. and now I'm paying the price for it. I'm just so anxious, and scared. It's bad enough i don't want to sleep, so I'm on here even if I have a 9am class tomorrow. Why do i have to deal with soooo much. I don't want to deal with this anymore. and I'm getting more tempted to do some actual SI. and I can't say that to anyone. I feel so alone. Who else can I talk with?? What can I do? help....... or at least I think I want help. I really don't know anymore. or ............................................ How much longer can I keep my roommates in the dark about all this???????? Or what would they do if they found out.??? now, I just want to do things I have never really wanted to do. grrr. I just had to vent, and see if it would help. but I guess it hasn't really helped.