How do you know this is JUST depression? Things are really bad at the moment and I am having bouts of paranoia, bad bad thoughts about what is happening around me. My family members and what they are and are not doing and saying etc.
I do not want to get out of bed. I do not want to function. I am contemplating just shutting down and not answering the door or phone. I think I am more than (I nearly said JUST) depressed. I want to get in the car and drive away from my life. Those around me are hurting me beyond measure. I cant say anything to them. They do not care, they do not think of anyone but themselves, certainly they dont look AT me and see what they do to me. I am breaking apart. I want to shut down. My hands are tied between what I want, and what I feel I should do, so I do not hurt any one else feelings. Then I get angry because they obviously dont care what they do to me. Oh I am so confused. I feel like I am in crisis here. What can I do without hurting anymore?