For one, I am fairly stable right now. Second, I've been diagnosed for a bit over four years. I've been working on learning when I'm having mania, hypo mania, mixed episode etc, I might be completely out-of-it but I've had practice knowing the cues - and then call my dr.

I've had times when I either didn't realize what was going on or I enjoyed the mania and it's derealization so I co tonued with it- didn't answer my phone and wandered the world aimlessly. I've hallucinated- aurally and visually, and wanted to stay unwell. Eventually, I got to where those episodes got worse- not fun anymore. And each time I had an episode, it w'S worse than the time before. I had to choose to get healthy. You can get into real trouble when manic- buying sprees, risky sex, thinking you can fly off balconies....