I'm my own worst enemy.. And i know that, i totally understand that i cant expect anyone else to love me if i dont love myself, i dont know how to love myself.
Even when my self esteems high and i feel i can do anything i'd still look at myself in the mirror with disgust.
I've lost my job this week, all of my friends seem to be moving forward into being an adult, but i cant find my path. Its not exactly a relationship i want i just dont want to be lonely.
I have a few specific friends that i would spend every hour of the day with and lots of friends that even when i am down and lonely i'd rather be on my own than with them.
the feeling of being in a house on my own makes me feel sick, but i've been alone since 10pm last night and i'm sort of getting used to it.
I dont belong anywhere, i dont want to go home because i hate my family seeing me down, but i dont want to spend another night in my friends flat cause then i will be on my own.
I hear what you're all saying and i understand it, i just cant believe it at the moment.
i have college at 4 so i need to start getting ready for that soon.