The reason Im bringing this here is because Im ashamed of myself and I dont want mom to feel I backstabbed her. My mom has been a drug addict all my life, but its hit its worse when I was 12 and she started doing crack. Later it switched from crack to pills. Shes never been drug free in my lifetime and Im 25. Recently mom and I have rekindled our relationship and basically she keeps me high everyday now that she moved to town near me. My boyfriend and I are really struggling and I run to moms house claiming its to get a break from fighting. Mom uses me to talk her down when she trips out. I never wanted this for myself and its making me feel like a huge failure. I wanted better for my kids. Being a junkie is in my blood. Do I leave my mom to kill herself slowly? I could walk away from her and never use again, but there is apart of me that needs my mom and whatever dysfunctional means of support she offers. I just keep thinking about my kids. I need advice, what would you do?