hi cherry, i was physically and emotionally abused. my T suggested i keep a journal too. once i wrote in it i didn't reread it til i was with my T. that helped me feel safe and he helped me with the emotions i felt while reading it to him. we would underline the feelings i had-worthless, helpless, hopeless, not valuable enough for someone in the present to love me. then we'd work on those feelings i had. i discovered time and again they were false beliefs about myself. can't express how liberating it was. it was tough getting thru the pain but it also resulted in freeing me to rediscover who i am. i started life over again. i also was in a support group...i'm normally not good in group settings..but i benefitted a lot cause there were other people going thru a rebirth of self too. they/i could relate to their feelings. we supported each other. everone's story of abuse was similar to mine in regard to negative feelings. my new life is so, so much better. i no longer have to be in that situation again. i have tools to avoid getting snared by another abuser.
pc is another good place to express your feelings. it's a very suportive community. i wish you the very best on your journey of rediscovering yourself. glad u're going back into therapy too. we're here for you