Yesterday I was bebopping around the grocery store an feeling OK. Then I started the drive home and started feeling a creepy calm come over me. Next thing I know, I had a strong urge to burn myself with my cigarette and I started bawling all over the place. Fortunately, I resisted the urge, but this depression came on all of a sudden like a ton of bricks. Now I'm just empty inside.
I did have a stressful holidays and now classes in grad school have started up again. I also spent the past week mostly bedridden with severe food poisoning. I couldn't even take my meds one morning because, well, you can guess. I guess all those things added up to too much stress.
Still, I don't like it when these mood shifts hit so suddenly. No time to prepare for the storm.