HI Dexter
I am so sorry to hear that you are so alone, I can't imagine how you could be.
The posts I have read from you are so wonderful and helpful.
I personally thought WOW what a nice and smart person to have here with us, You are so great with words.
As far as I can see it, anyone who can't see that you have a lot to offer are people who you really don't need in your life right now anyway, they are not your true friends.
You will find true friends, trust me it can be hard, but there is always someone who you might least expect, just around the corner.
When you feel so down it Is harder to find them. So I really hope you start feeling better soon.
It is good that you are able to realize that these so called friends are not true now, because it will help you in the future to see others for what they are, being sincere or not.
I feel lioke I am rambling on wish I could do more to help you.
I am glad you were able to post this here because I know that when I feel real bad I can't even do that I fell like who really cares anyway, so good for you.
Maybe you could try and do somthing with the talents you have,( ie your photography writing skills etc.)
Anyway keep posting, you are an INSPIRATION!!!!!
Take care and know that you have friends here.