I'm starting to get crazy nervous about tomorrow already, like sick to stomach nervous. What if I can't talk, what do I do? What if she looks at me sideways and tries to be all caring?

This sounds crazy, but I'm almost mad at her for making me tell her and then going out of town. She had to know that these feelings would come up, right? I mean, why would she push it out of me if she knew she wasn't going to be there... That sounds stupid, doesn't it?