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Originally Posted by blueoctober
Malappi I'm the same way. I'm a very logical person, and when I was first diagnosed I wanted the A, B, C's of what to do. My pdoc couldn't give me that because everyone experiences this illness differently. This is why no one can give you an answer about what your wife will or won't remember. Each person is different and each person experiences bipolar in a different way.
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Well, first of all my name is Michael and thank-you Beth for all of your support. Non of this should come as a surprise for me. I have been dealing with it for three years and I think I always knew that there was a great deal of potential for all of this to happen.
In the beggining, she told me it was menopause and she did seem to be having problems with that. Thinking about it, I think that for the most part, there was always some form of trigger that set her off. It was weird, I could actually tell a day or two before she would go off on me. This time it had to be her daughter and her condition coupled with a lot of grief from her son.
So when ever she would have a small rise in tension or stress she would go off. Normally, it would take about a week to ten days before she would all of a sudden just act like nothing had happenend. I could come home and expect a vile person and there would be a beautiful lady cooking a great meal. Naturally that would lead to the bedroom and everything would be fine. I would just shake my head and say what just happened.
I don't know about all of this Beth. I think if I gave up I would hate myself yet every indication is that she is not going to change. Maybe she is not bipolar maybe, its something else. The delusions her daughter goes into are way out there. That poor kid will be absolutely lost. I mean she would have these crazy ideas and wild thoughts coupled with the delusions of who people actually are. She couldn't tell you who you are, she would have no idea.
I keep reading all this stuff and learning from the people here. I have not seen anyone post behaviour like that. When my wife would lose it, she really lost it. This 5'5" women could turn into an animal in seconds flat. One thing that I have always noticed is a change in her eyes. Normally she has really deep color but they really subtle to look at. When she goes into one of these phases, her eyes get buggy. They get real bright, almost glassy like.
I have not read that in the bipolar forums. What do you think?