i have some ....slight..irritability...issues...but to be honest it's DRASTICALLY worse when i am off meds. I mean i have those moments...of "OMG i'm brilliant"...but i deserve to feel good about myself ... I mean my depression...was sooooooo long....i was undiagnosed for a LONG time...i had addiction..issues...while trying to self medicate...SI...it was bad....really bad...i deserve some happyness....even if it's...manufactured...and not actual happiness...just hypo-mania.......it's not all good like i keep saying..there alot of things that are not great...the lack of sleep, the racing thoughts, the rash spending spree's, the rage...the inability to do anything casually..., the inability to stick with anything...i get these idea's in my mind about doing something..and it just turns into an addiction...it could be anything..i just gog og og og og go.....and then...on to the next thing...i love the freedom...the creativity..the mental clarity..the 0 anxiety...no restraints..just do what i want..and i don't even care when people get upset...i look them right in the face and say..."i don't care"...and i feel no remorse...and with all of this.....even hypo-mania has flaws...but they are still not half as bad as being depressed.
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