melissa, as i mentioned i think to u before the "key" is "willingness" and change. it seems you have that and i am happy for you on this journey of a new way of living. for some of us it takes time to get it right-meaning not drinking-but in my heart i know you can do this as suggested by AA. your sponsor is your guide-thank goodness you have one! i knew i couldn't do it alone and my sponsor helped me stay focused on what i needed to do as well as meetings. just remember you do have a choice re drinking...get drunk or go to a meeting instead. 'think throught the drink" and it will help you stay sober. i know you know this so i'll shut up. just so happy "you want it". you will never regret it. you deserve to be happy, joyous, and free!!!
PS thanks for keeping us posted. we care