((((suga))))
I know SO well the LOOK - my T has this too, and it just absolutely gets me...it really feels like she sees what I'm not saying, or at least knows that there is something that needs to be said, even if I simply can't say it.
I understand too, about the self-soothe stuff, about finding it hard to do though I know I need to be able to, and considering it a weakness......but, if I may say it this way, no need to feel ashamed, even if it is a weakness! It is so hard to feel weak in something so important, and I hate feeling weak too - but where I am weak, I CAN learn to be strong, and while I am learning to be strong, it is OK to feel weak, to ask for help and receive it.....I don't know what to say sometimes either when my T asks me what I need or what can she give me (sometimes I feel like saying, just love me, nothing more than that! )
anyway, I am thinking of you!