rain i'm not sure how emdr works but if you are having delayed reactions to it and feeling so bad it must be so hard not to be able to e-mail your T but i would call her .she said you could.it is a long time to sit with these feelings i bet she would be ok with you calling if you are feeling so sad as a reaction to emdrplease give it a try.it might help.i think you should talk to her about her calling policy and how often you could call get good boundries and then maybe you would feel safe with calling and maybe it will be able to help with these hard feelings.take care of you