I'm glad you posted doriangray. What kind of emotions are you feeling? Has something happened in you life recently that brought this thought about? You said 'that not everyone is a total asshole'...did someone hurt you? What happened? How do you feel about talking to a professional? I think by posting it is clear a big part of you wants to live, you just want the pain to stop. We will do everything we can to listen to your concerns and help you. ((((Hugs))))