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Originally Posted by malapp1
I am actually excited about going to therapy and scared of the therapy. It almost seems that I am looking for people to say “oh poor you.” That is not what I am interested in. You and everyone else who said I enable her are correct. I tried to use alcohol and drug abuse as an excuse. I have attempted to use the notion that her stress triggered her delusions. I have used every available excuse I can find to excuse the behavior. What I have failed to do is get my wife help. That along with my propensity to love unconditionally is undoubtedly what has caused me to be in this situation. My “propensity” has caused me a great deal of grief. Maybe, she doesn’t love me, maybe I need to deal with that and get on with my life. But, what if I am wrong, what if she really is “unwell.”
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I'm happy your glad to get started in therapy, and of course it is normal to be scared as well. I don't get the impression you want sympathy..at least not from what i have read thus far. It seems you have tried the excuses..and are now at a place where you may need help to take some of the next steps forward..and so just to reiterate i am very happy you plan on seeking therapy. Your describing your "unconditonal love" makes me take a long hard look at my signature here i think that this thought you have is actually your last remaining excuse
With that being said i wont judge you, it's not my job, i hope you will find some peace in therapy and my only words of advice are...be honest...with the therapist...even if you are not with yourself...because in the end you will be able to know for certain what the right course of action is for you...and be able to live with the results of your decisions..and the fastest way there is honesty.